Okay... so I know I have been a slacker and haven't blogged in awhile.. but life is crazy busy right now and it is difficult to find times to blog. Like right now... I am in my Sports Medicine class. I am suppose to be writting an essay on the dislocation of a lumbar vertebra, but instead I am here blogging.
Since I last blogged, I have done a lot. I started my senior year and I am loving every minute of it. I got back into clogging and we are getting ready for the competition season. Same goes for cheer. Our first competition is in about two weeks and we are not ready... at all. We will pull it off though, I know that for a fact. Life is good and I love it. A lot has changed from last year. I am in a completely different place than I thought I would be. Different friends makes for a different me. A better me.
These last couple of weeks have really opened my eyes of what I want in life and who I want to be as an individual. About two weeks ago, my bestfriend and I got in an argument. He didn't agree with some of the choices that I made, and I didn't agree with his opinion. I thought I was right and he thought he was right. We were both too stubborn to put our differences aside and just be friends again. I was really worried there for a minute. I thought I had lost him. I need this best friend in my life. For whatever reason, he needs to be in my life. I was a completely different person without him. Yeah it looked like I was happy from the outside, but inside I was miserable. I started hanging out with random people that I really didn't even want to be around. I wasn't making the right decisions and I was angry at the world and everyone who talked to me. Life literally sucked. Luckily.... and thankfully, last sunday night I got a phone call from him. He apologized for what he had done and he said I am sorry. We both agreed that we need each other in our lives and we forgave each other of what we had done. I can not tell you the difference that phone call made in me. My whole attitude changed and my whole countenance was different. I remember running upstairs yelling to everyone that we fixed things and we are best friends again. I was happy as I've ever been. I didn't have to pretend that I was happy anymore.
I learned a lot from this experience. The main thing that I learned is that there are people that we need in our lifes and we have to do everything we can to keep them there. Both of us realized this, so we did what we had to do. I also learned the wonderful gift of forgiveness. Three simple words of "I am sorry" can go a long way. Once those were said, everything was back to normal. We put our stubborness aside and forgave each other. Such a wonderful blessing to have forgiveness in my life. The last thing I learned is to do what makes you happy. Who cares what others think? You are your own self and YOU are the only one that knows what is best for you. Don't let others get in your head and tell you that you will be happy if you go for it. Most of the time... you will be miserable just like I was. If you aren't happy in a situation, get out of it. I couldn't tell you how much happier I am because of what has happened. I am back to my normal self again. I don't know what I would do with my best friend in my life. He is the biggest example in my life, he will ALWAYS be by my side, and he loves me for who I am, not someone he wants me to be. He respects me and treats me like a princess. I don't know what I would do without him in my life. I've never been more happy than when I am with him. Just thinking about him makes me smile... :) Glad I had this experience in my life. We are now much closer as friends, and we truely value our friendship. We have a special friendship that no one else will have and no one will ever be able to replace. You should be jealous... because it is pretty fantastic and my best friend is a thousand times better than yours! :)
